About the commitment

I made a commitment 12 weeks ago to co-lead a Thin Within class online at the Thin Within site.  I got about five weeks into it and started wrestling with the Lord and did not give my whole heart in it.  So I hung on by a string and kept doing the study but also eating my own way most of the time.  Then when Reshaping it All came along, last week I found it, and I felt like this is what I was going to do.  I realize this happens, I find another book or "way" to lose weight or be healthy instead of doing what the Lord has asked me to do.  I look at it as gripping for a "law" or "rule" to the way I should eat, the right way.  I skirt around, if you will, the way He chose for me.  He has clearly showed me for my body that I need to pay attention to my hunger and eat when I am physically hungry and to stop eating when I am satisfied/full and eat no more.  Also that He is the one that truly satisfies and not the food.  I am also assured by Him that He will show me foods that will strengthen my body and are beneficial for me as I trust Him and go by also the knowledge that I have.  He really helps me in this moment by moment when I rely on Him, but lately I have done anything but that in the area of eating. 

So I am feeling the Lord saying finish the 12th week of Thin Within study that you are in now and then rely on me to see what is next.  I feel I have all the knowledge, but He is asking me to take some actions now.  So that is what I am going to do.  I am undoing what I jumped into last week.  I am still reading Reshaping it All, but I am going to take a break from the 65 day study/blog and finish what I am on and what I started.  Giving it my whole heart.  I am going to seek Him then in what I am going to do next, which may be just rely on Him, I have to be open to what He leads me to and not just grab what "I" want. 

I am reminded of something I heard about the Galatians the other day and how they were walking by the Spirit and then started going back to the law...it seems thats what I keep attempting to do.  I must be still.  Be still and know that He is God.

Lord please help me in this, bring me back to you in this area and all areas, and give me the desire and strength to be still and listen to You and obey.  In Jesus Name, Amen