My Gluten Free Journey

I'm working on eating gluten free and I've never been diagnosed...by a medical doctor that is.  I am on a journey to know if gluten is for me or against me.  The gluten free diet is something that I am familiar with.  See I have a child, lets call him Sugarbear, who is allergic to wheat (among other things).  So since he was born seven years ago I have been learning to incorporate more and more wonderful foods and meals into our family that are gluten free.  He has several other food allergies that I will definitely share more about all I have learned about those in the blogs to come in the future.

So why am I working on eating gluten free?  Well when Sugarbear was born he had a lot of eczema and itching and rashes.  I knew a little about allergies because our oldest, Knucklehead, has a peanut allergy.  I knew all the itching, rashes and eczema were not normal and probably related to allergies.  At this time, when Sugarbear was a baby, I had released all of my excess weight by eating when hungry and stopping when satisfied (not full or overstuffed, but satisfied and had enough).  After changing the kinds of food I was eating to not eat things he was allergic to since I was nursing him...I started gaining weight.  Now there were many other things going on in my heart and life at that time, which I think I attributed to the weight gain, but I still held onto the fact I knew to release all of my weight and be healthy I needed to eat only when I was hungry and stop when satisfied, the way my body was created to be fed.  For some reason I would talk about that to people and share a lot about eating when hungry and stopping when satisfied, and it not necessarily being about what you eat, when releasing weight.  But I knew I was not doing that.  I kept eating and disregarding my hunger signals for several years.  I was not living out what I was saying or what I believed.  

Fast forward a few years Princess came into the picture.  I was pregnant again and starting that pregnancy was at my highest weight ever other than when I had been pregnant in the past.  After having her I released all of my weight once again eating only when I was hungry (when my stomach growled, which is what my body does when I am truly hungry) and stopping when I was satisfied.  It was Truth that had set me free, helped me release all of this weight.  I was healthy, God had shown me how to eat when I was hungry the way He created me.  So then guess what?  I started gaining weight again.  In two years I got to the next highest weight I had ever been while not being pregnant.  Highest weight ever!  Not only though had I started eating outside of my boundaries, but I also started questioning what foods my body needed to be healthiest and started praying about it.  What is going on here, I thought, questioning so very many things?!

To be continued...

More later...Love to you!

Kim :)

Saying Good-Bye to Food Once & For All

For me it is like letting go of a loved one.  I cannot believe the hold that food has had on me the past two years.  Having been freed from it twice already in the past 5 years, you would think I knew how to cling to God and let Him help me in this so I was never in bondage again.  How did I end up back here you ask...the answer, one single compromise after another.

The Lord is showing me things, that I have seemed to been ignoring or in denial about the past two years, this past week.  Things about sin and how that is what I should be realizing is going on, and not that I am gaining weight and am losing control.  New perspective coming in my life and changes are in store in me as well.  God is doing a new thing and He is working even now and the fruits of His work will be showing up soon, when I am not even expecting it!  Thankful for that.


Two scriptures on my heart:


Isaiah 43:19 For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.


The other I cannot seem to find at the moment but I know what the message of it is...it says that as soon as we think we have "got it" or that we are doing good, be careful because then we are sure to stumble.  


So I want to rely on the Lord and learn to be more and more reliant on Him and not myself, because as soon as I think I have anything under control it will not be pretty.  God alone.  He is enough.  Food has to go and cannot hold a place in my heart anymore.  


It is like losing a great friend, this food.  I'm turning my back and asking God for help to learn how to fully live for Him and ENJOY Jesus each moment every day and work through feelings and circumstances without my old friend (idol/god but totally not a god), food.  


Good bye food (my love for it).  

Lord help me as I step out in faith.  I want this next day to be different.  Forgive me my sins, cleanse me and help me turn my back to the idols in my life and turn my face towards You and enjoy life!~  Thank you for today and for life and breath, I pray whoever reads this today will hear what You are saying to them and that they will just love you more.  In Jesus Name, Amen :)


Love to you...more later....


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