My One Word for 2013

To read about my 2012 "one word' click here.  This was an amazing year to LIVE.  I can't believe how it has impacted my life all year to realize when I get halted by something and start trying to figure out or stop living until something is figured out, and then realize, hey I need to live, keep moving, He is here and He will guide me and correct me and direct me, I need not fear.  I have experienced life much more full this year because of my one word.  So thankful for it.  It is something I will continue from now on, LIVE.   Thank you Lord for teaching me!  I am amazed and thankful.

This year I started praying and talking to God about what my One Word for 2013 will be, and the word heavy on my heart is TRUST.  I will be reading this devotional in 2013 that Abba led me to.  I am excited.  At first I thought I am nervous that Trust is my word for this year.  I had questions, God why do I need to trust you more, what is going to happen?  Fear set in and the enemy hurled lies over and over and over.  I say...I trust you Jesus.

The scripture that I feel goes with this that keeps coming to mind is this:

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek His will in all you do,
and He will show you which path to take (or He will direct your path).

I also want to trust Him with my blog.  I used to journal daily, and write and write, and when I started working full time earlier this year, I stopped and it was more like a few times a week or maybe once a week.  I would read back into my journal the past year or two and saw how much I talked about me, and how much I was trying to figure things out.  So I feel like what I am going to start doing is to use my blog as a journal and share my heart as I feel led and also for accountability, and also I want to do something I have read about recently.  A praise journal, or a thankful journal.  And each day write all I am thankful for and all I can praise Him for, so I can continue to renew my mind and have my thoughts not focused on myself, but focused on God. 

What is your one word for 2013?  Have you thought about it?  Pray about it and see what comes up.  Here is the link to explain it a bit more:  http://myoneword.org/

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

More later...
Kim :)

Today's Thoughts

Good morning!  I wanted to drop in and chat about wanting to get healthy and how I have not taken care of myself a lot the last few years.  I don't think I realized the extent it was at, how much I really focused on what to do, but how much I was NOT doing, as far as eating what will nourish my body and also exercising.  I listened to a CD by Joyce Meyer a few weeks ago called The Importance of Taking Care of Yourself.

Part 1 & Part 2-so good to listen to if you are not on your list of people that you take care of (I wasn't and want to work on being on the top of that list)

So time to do some mind renewing in this area.  I am in denial and really don't want to think about the condition my body is in right now as I have neglected it for so long.  Then I think, well I am going to do something about it, and start thinking in that direction, and then lies start pouring in...

• how do you think you will get anywhere considering how you have been the last several years
• yeah right, do you really think you are going to be healthy again
• do you really think you can do it
• you shouldn't even try really hard at all because you won't succeed

Do any of these lies sound familiar to you???  Well they are so familiar to me.  I haven't even wanted to get my yearly check up because I know I won't and do not like the condition of my health and body right now.  But why am I going to keep putting it off.  I started reading Eden Diet again by Dr. Rita Hancock, and am again bringing God into this and want His help and guidance to return to my full health and natural weight.  

My one word for 2013, which I will share in another post, is trust.  I am going to work on trusting God in all things and let Him direct the paths, all the while what I really need to remember is that it will be uncomfortable and just because it is hard at first, does not mean that I am not succeeding and it does not mean nothing is going to work.  It means I am starting to fight a fight I haven't even engaged in for years.  

More later...

My Strengths, My Blog

So if I learned to blog about my strengths, what are the things I need to be sharing and letting FLOW from my heart into my writing?  What are things I get excited about, though many people around me would think I'm a major goofball for getting excited about them? (hehe!) 

 



• I get excited about seeking God constantly and seeing what He does each day to direct me and guide me. How he intervenes in every situation and shines through, gives me favor, and makes things all work out.
• I get excited about the perfect bite, creating a recipe that has the perfect bite.  Also helps to have the least amount of allergens in it as possible!
• Wherever I am, being all there, blooming where I'm planted.  Seeing what God sees and not what I or other people would see in the littlest situations.  Loving others as I love myself.

So there we have it to start.  The heart of the blog, the life of the blog, hearts, hearts and more exciting hearts!

More later...
Kim

Numb

Feeling numb especially in the area of eating.  I have exhausted it in my mind heart and soul.  I have sabotaged many well intended starts I have taken.  I have doubted ideas and inspiration.  I have sadly given up in my heart.  I suppose that is a good thing as that is when God changes you.  When you surrender and give it up.  I can't control anymore.

Thoughts. Random brain dump.  I can do this.  I don't have to have everything figured out.  I cannot focus outside of this very moment.  I have to stay in this moment.  And be all there.  Keep my focus on His face.  I asked Him to be my personal trainer.  He is very capable of doing that.  I have to allow Him in.  More.  More than ever.  And not run away or try and hide again.  Vulnerable.  Need more vulnerability.  It's okay if I feel something.  Really it is.  No need to numb anymore.

Prayer.  Jesus I need help to be vulnerable.  To feel again.  To let you and others in.  To have discernment of when to let in and when to have boundaries.  I want to be the intuitive eater that You and my body so desires me to be.  I have all the knowledge.  But like I heard Joyce Meyer say a few weeks ago...we have so much more knowledge than our level of obedience.  I truly know this is true for me.  I have exhausted my mind in it all.  I need a fresh start now.  Right now I ask you to sweep me off my feet with Your love and to help me restart in filling up on You and not food or drink.  You are so much better than that and I know that is Truth. Jesus be my everything and even though things might not change right away and I may not see immediate results, please help me rely on You and keep taking steps of obedience when I don't feel like it or when it is hard and help me to see the clear path of personal training You have in store for me each moment of each day.  I.  Need.  You.  In Jesus Name, Amen

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More later...Kim 

His Hand Puppet

My prayer tonight is that I will be like His hand-puppet with Him leading and me resting in Him and so in love with Him.

Jesus calling today was perfect for me to hear.  This is what it said:

From "Jesus Calling by Sarah Young - November 19

"LEAVE OUTCOMES UP TO ME. Follow Me wherever I lead, without worrying about how it will all turn out. Think of your life as an adventure, with Me as your Guide and Companion. Live in the 'now,' concentrating on staying in step with Me. When our path leads to a cliff, be willing to climb it with My help. When we come to a resting place, take ti...

me to be refreshed in My Presence. Enjoy the rhythm of life lived closed to Me.

You already know the ultimate destination of your journey: your entrance into heaven. So keep your focus on the path just before you, leaving outcomes to Me."

"I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD."
Psalm 27:13-14

"'In your unfailing love you will lead the people you have redeemed. In your strength you will guide them to your holy dwelling.'"
Exodus 15:1

Seems to be the theme lately of what I am learning.  To walk by His Spirit, obey His Word, and then you think, how in the world will I be able to do those things...and your mind starts spinning?  Well then the answer comes...you can't do it.  He will do it for you.  He will give you the grace, strength and power to walk by His Spirit and obey His Word.  Thankful.

Where you go I'll go by Brian and Jenn Johnson is the song on my heart this week--heard for first time at church Sunday!

More later...Love to you!

Strengths & Weaknesses (Mine)

So I am reading this really good book that is the best so far that I have read about blogging.  It is called Blogger Behave.  One thing I have learned that stuck with me hard is this, to blog only 10% about your weaknesses and 90% about your strengths.  (I think that is what it said, or 20/80, but I believe the first is correct.) 

I think it is a good idea to really think about this and ponder it and search my heart so I can live more fully in the areas of my strengths and recognize the weaknesses that I can pray for help in and work slowly on them as well.

 



What are my strengths.  What are my weaknesses.  I have taken several personality tests lately that reveal what my strengths and weaknesses are and I think I have much more to figure out as far as learning about myself and what those are, but I can share with you what I have learned so far. 

My strengths:
Mercy
Practicing His Presence
Cooking and finding recipes that work around many allergens (though I have not tackled cooking for multitudes, I am really good at finding the best foods to fit.)
Submitting to authority
Serving-more small tasks than large ones
Coordinating
Listening
Tenderhearted (not always showing it though)


My Weaknesses:
People pleasing
Not speaking up for myself, confrontation
Being vulnerable without questioning what people are thinking
Perfectionism, trying to figure everything out and find out the "right" way and then not press on or move forward until I know what that is-time waster! (many areas of my life fit into this category including eating, housekeeping, working, etc--this needs to be worked on so I can press on!)
Giving advice-*working in this area past few years and been really good sometimes at listening and not speaking too quick, and following the prompting of the Holy Spirit in what to say as He leads.

I think you should pray and seek what yours are and learn more about yourself, join me in this fun journey.

More later...
Kim :)

I Get it!

It finally clicked.  Something that has been bugging me for a long time.  Each time I set out to work on a certain area of my life, it gets hard.  When it gets hard and I focus on it, it seems like I start to think that it must not be right.  I must not be doing what God wants.  Then I will move on and try something else.  Reading something else.  Think of other areas or new goals.  I don't press through.  Because it is hard and I feel I am doing something wrong.  As I was running last night, in my 1 minute intervals, I felt like God was telling me something when I wanted to stop.  He said press through.  Then I also felt like He was teaching me that when you first start working on an area that is rusty and needs work, it will not be easy.  But you keep on doing it.  If it is what you are supposed to be doing.  The more you do it it will not seem as hard.  Defeat this battle in my mind now that it is too hard and I am doing something wrong. 

I am not doing anything wrong.  I am where God wants me. 

Time to break through these lies that I am doing something wrong.  Be still.  Slow down.  Work on what God has put right in front of me.  And live.

More later...

Kim :)