When to Walk Close to God

Before I start writing I will give you the answer to that.  The answer is.  Constantly.  Constantly walk close to God and never think that you can live a moment without completely depending on Him.

I tend to want to stray in my days in life.  I will go through a season in life that is not troublesome at all, there is nothing out of the ordinary happening, nothing that needs my special attention, and in those times I really, really do think that I am strolling along just fine and don't need any help.  I will start thinking thoughts like, "wow all those Bible studies paid off and I am getting life and have it figured out, I know how to live for God now!" I will think "I got this" and that is NOT the case at all.  The more I think that the worse off I am.  The more I walk close to God and cling to Him, the BETTER my life and my days are.  Period.

Why do I want to be disconnected I wonder.  I think it is because of pride and the human nature to be in control.  Living surrendered is not natural I am learning.  Today is a new day.

I am thinking, I really hope someone reads this as I feel like God told me to write it, but I feel like everyone is learning this as they walk with God and doesn't everyone already know this?  In my mind I am thinking, like DUH!?

I sure wish I was perfect.  I sure wish that I could just do this life on my own and know all the answers.  I tend to get in that mentality very often.  I wish I didn't have to try so hard to know what I am supposed to do, and I wish that I could just know it all and live it.  

What would be the point of that, I wonder?

If I already knew everything.  If I already had it all figured out.  Where would passion be?  Where would my heart be?  What would I be filled with?  Those are my thoughts for now.